10:06 p.m. | 2014-02-16
stubbornly keep on

Depression is such a weird beast. Its ability to fade away and then smack you in the face and then fade away again, leaving you with this crazy amount of productivity and optimism, only to catch you off guard again.. god, it's scary. But I'm so fucking tired of being scared. I've spent twelve years being scared. I don't even know where it came from, what caused it. There's no underlying trauma here, just a little girl who veered off a track full of brightness and potential into blackness for absolutely no reason. I'm gonna get back on that track. And it's not going to kill me.